The alarm clock is beeping. You were right, this month it really is darker than last. The reason for the alarm waking us up so early one week each month is never far from either of us. Particularly for you. It is time to start the next cycle.
We dress, do a quick breakfast, and try to make things as “usual” as any other day. But I know how hard it is for you to think of anything being “usual” anymore.
The cats do not understand why it is still dark as I let them in for their breakfast. ‘The humans must be nuts,’ they must think. They eat, but things do not seem right to them either. They are up early, but they still cannot go outside until it gets a bit brighter.
They clearly do not understand us.
Driving up the hill again almost seems like a commute. But this is not a job either of us would have wanted. This will be the fifth round. After this week there will only be one more round to go. By that time, it should really be dark during the drive to the clinic.
This next round will also be the last one for sure. And after that? Only time will tell. No one knows what will happen. All I know is that without this treatment you might not be here now. As hard as it is for you to go through this, it seems to be helping. It is hard for you to believe that though, as we drive up to the clinic this early in the morning. You have to still get through this week’s treatment before we get to the last round next month. You will make it to the last one though. I was not always sure of that.
Memory is the Key 